Thursday, August 9, 2012

Drained

To start off this post, I would just like to talk about all of the texts, emails and phone calls I have been getting lately. Everybody has been reaching out to me and giving me the kindest words anybody could be given. I would like to give every single one of those people a huge thank you for all of the support you have given me for the past few months. I have the best friends, family and fans in the world, and I feel like the luckiest 14 year old in the world. The last blog post concerned a bunch of individuals, and I would just like to clear up a couple things. I am not hurting myself physically in any way. Some people thought this because of all the pain expressed in "Alone". Writing "Alone" was my way of letting out all of the pain. I am sorry for all of you readers who were deeply concerned for me and my safety. Also, to be honest with you I am not doing any better than I was. I am still having trouble with the fact that this person hurt me and the people close to me. I've been channelling all of my anger by going for a run and writing all my feelings out in a notebook. More things have come up since than and I am still struggling to take all of this in. I am doing my best to cope with all of this and I am healthy and well.

Thank you all for the continuous support.

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I am going to be perfectly honest with you right now. I have written and deleted this blog post 10 times. This post has been the toughest post to write out of all of my posts so far. Everyday I come back to my laptop and read it over, I still think its not "Nathan-enough". 2012 has been a tough year for me. I feel like I am drifting away from the people closest to me and it kills me inside. Me and many people around me have gotten hurt. Some have had their hearts broken, some have passed away. I am at the point where I am completely physically and emotionally drained.

I'm sorry it had to come to this, but I am taking a break from my blog. I need to find myself and I try to control all of this madness going on in my life. This blog has really helped me through all of the highs and lows for the past few months, but I think it is just too much for me to handle right now. I'm so sorry to all of my readers. Thank you for reading week by week, it really means a lot that all of you enjoy reading about life through my eyes. I hope all of you have a great summer and fall and I'll see you soon.

xx Nathan


6 comments:

  1. So sorry to here this, lad. Hope everything becomes better soon. You are my favorite blogger on this site and I am saddened by the fact that you are leaving. My prayers and thoughts are with you..

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  2. nooooooo.... :( #superrrsad

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  3. even though i dont know u and u dont know me i am deeply sad by this :( hope you get better soon. i love ur blog so fuckin muchhh..

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  4. Stay strong. Get better.

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  5. Love you so much. Never forget that.

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